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No I am not talking about Miami. I am talking about the place you go to find a way to get something that you are missing inside. Filling the hole as my wife has said many times. I have tried to fill the hole many ways. Right now, it’s gambling. Although not serious, I have to look at my family history and my nature to understand why I must take action now to minimize damage, or suffer consequences later. I am hoping people can learn from my story here and that’s the talk of the day today.
HIGHLIGHTS
I think I have a gambling problem. Yeah, yeah, I think I do. I remember I went to Vegas a few months ago with my wonderful, beautiful hot wife, and I won $2,000. Since then, I’ve been playing slot machines here and there, at least once a week, and that might seem kind of not excessive to some people, but for me, it’s pretty excessive. I don’t like it. I don’t like it one bit. I’m gonna tell you why. I have an issue with gambling. I have an issue with gambling because I have a very addictive personality. I get addicted to things quick. I get addicted to junk food. I get addicted to substances, maybe drugs. I haven’t done drugs in a long time. Don’t worry, it’s been been a long time, like 20 years. Um, get addicted to video games
Why too much is not always good. The excess. You know, when you do too much of something, it gets boring sometimes, right? It is. Repetition doesn’t always. It doesn’t always make everything. It doesn’t make everything better all the time. It sometimes makes things harder. When you eat a lot of food, what happens? You feel sick, right? You feel like sometimes disgusting, and I think a lot of times when you’re in it and you’re filling that hole, right, that we talked about, you’re like you’re not really seeing it because it’s it’s hard to stop yourself when you’re in pain. When you’re in pain, you want anything to take away that pain, and you don’t care what it is. You’ll take medicine. I mean, look at sports stars. Look at wrestlers. Some of them are in so much pain. They take these hardcore painkillers, and they end up becoming dependent on them because they use them so often. Maybe you’re not built to be the saffling, and it’s like because there’s so much money in the line, there’s so much. We sometimes build ourselves up into certain places that we don’t have an escape hatch. We just have to keep moving forward with what we have because if we don’t, we’re going to lose our spot. We’re going to lose all the things that we accumulated in our life, and it’s funny because that is something Tyler Durden says in Fight Club is that there comes a time in life that the things you own start to own you.
It makes it easier to give yourself a rule book. So all you got to do is just keep working on that, and eventually you’re going to find it. And one thing that I know is that one day at a time shit. That one day at a time shit is fucking helpful. If you can tell yourself just for today, I won’t do this. That helps, because instead of saying every day for the rest of your life, you’re only taking a 24-hour day, and think about it-you sleep about five to eight hours during that day anyway. So now you’ve knocked it down to, you know, roughly 15 to 20 hours
MICHAEL CASERNO 
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